Hope for Pastors Who Are Trapped in Depression

LincolnThis past Sunday I preached a message from the book of Job entitled “The Dark Night of the Soul:  The Problem and the Blessings of Depression.”  In this message, we examined the difficult and often neglected subject of depression in the life of believers.  I showed our congregation that Job shows the classic signs in this book of experiencing anxiety and depression.  In this blog post, I would like to extend that conversation to the problem of depression among Pastors.  Specifically, I would like to offer some hope and help for Pastors who are serving the church but who feel trapped in depression.

I understand this problem because I have struggled with depression throughout my life and have been serving in the ministry for over twenty years.  For most of my ministry I have kept my depression a secret — fearful that it would disqualify me from carrying out the call of God on my life.  But a few years ago, I began a journey that has lead me to understand that although depression presents several unique problems it also presents some unique blessings and opportunities.

First, however, let me share some statistics with you that demonstrate just how big of a problem anxiety and depression are among Pastors.  According to a a study conducted by the Schaeffer Institute among those involved in full-time ministry:

  • 50%  feel unable to meet the demands of the job.
  • 80% feel the ministry has negatively affected their family.
  • 70% report battling depression
  • 70% report that they do not have someone they consider a close friend

Obviously, this is one of the most pressing issues facing the clergy in America today.  When I first read these statistics I was both relieved and surprised.  Relieved because for the first time I realized that I was not alone in my struggle and surprised because I talk to Pastors daily and never realized so many were struggling.

The problems created by depression are rather obvious.  Pastors who battle with depression end up feeling isolated, lonely and discouraged.  Often they end up quitting the ministry or worse yet stay in and grow more and more bitter.  Over the past twenty years, I have met dozens of men who once felt the fire of God burning in their soul to preach the Word but who’ve grown despondent and jaded due to depression.  The problems are obvious to everyone, but what we often fail to comprehend is that depression also offers some unique blessings.  

I first began to think about the unique blessings of depression a couple of years ago when I came across an article in The Atlantic magazine detailing Abraham Lincoln’s  struggle with depression.  In that article, Joshua Wolf Shenk discussed Lincoln’s lifelong and public battle with depression.  As I read the article, I couldn’t help but think about how different things are today than they were in Lincoln’s day.  If Lincoln were running today there would be no way he could get elected as a member of town council let alone as President of the United States.  His battle with “melancholy” was far too public for him to be elected in our present political environment.  But Lincoln, thankfully,  lived in a different era — an era when depression was thought to be closely linked with genius.

As Lincoln grew older, Shenk argues that he moved from fearing his melancholy to engaging with it and to eventually transcending it.  Shenk points out that due to his depression, Lincoln was able to see situations with more clarity than others — an phenomenon that researchers have labeled “depressive reality.   This allowed him to come up with creative solutions to the problems of his day.  In addition to these, however, Lincoln’s depression also produced within a sense of humility and determination.  He was not afraid to fail and, in fact, expected to fail more often than he succeeded.  Harriet Beecher Stowe compared him to a wire cable that sways in a storm but holds fast.

As I was reading Shenk’s article a thought occurred to me.  A light bulb went off in my head and it dawned on me that Lincoln would not have been perhaps the greatest President in the history of our nation if he had not been depressed.  Theologically speaking, God has uniquely prepared this man’s personality and psyche for the time and place in which he lived.  But then something even greater popped into my mind — God has made me just the way I am to serve Him.   For years, I had felt embarrassed, ashamed and guilty because I struggle with depression but what if I had been looking at the issue all wrong?  What if my depression was really a gift from God rather than a curse?

Reading that article radically changed the way I looked at depression.  Suddenly, I stopped thinking of depression only in terms of being a curse and started looking at the potential blessings that it might offer.  Now I know that some of you want me to say something along the line of, “and then I got better and was never depressed again.”  We like fairy tales endings where everyone lived happily ever after.  But that’s not what happened.  Recognizing that depression was a blessing from God didn’t make it go away.  In fact, I’ve come to the realization that I will struggle with depression for the rest of my earthly life.  But that does not mean that there isn’t a silver lining.  What I discovered is that as I became more open and honest about my depression, I started to become more effective in the ministry.  Let give you some of the ways that it has helped:

  • I’ve been able to relate to those in my congregation that are also struggling with depression.
  • I’ve been able to minister to other Pastors who are struggling with the same issue.
  • Knowing and accepting that I struggle with anxiety and depression has helped me to balance my tendency to obsess on the worst possible outcome of any scenario.  This has helped me to embrace the kind of creative thinking Lincoln experienced without focusing too much on the darkest possible outcome.

If you are struggling with depression in the ministry let me offer you a couple of pieces of advice.  First, the sooner you come to grips with it the better.  Second, don’t give up.  If you are hurting so bad that you’re experiencing suicidal thoughts or entertaining leaving the ministry please call someone and talk to them.  There is hope.  Third, study the issue of depression and learn as much as you can about it.  The more you understand the unique problems and opportunities it presents the better off you’ll be.  Finally, when the time is right share your struggle with others.  Don’t do this before you are ready and before you are able to help to others but when the time is right don’t hesitate to share your struggle.  WARNING: there will be some in your congregation who will criticize you for being so open but don’t let them discourage you from sharing.  Some in your congregation might think they want Superman for a Pastor but what they really need is YOU.  God has uniquely made you and placed you exactly where He wants you to be.  Your depression is not a surprise to Him.  He wants to use it to make an eternal different in your life and in the lives of the people you serve — so engage it and transcend it through the power of the Gospel.

 

 

 

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Go See the “Son of God” and take a Friend with You

Last night around 170 members and guests of our church got the chance to preview the new movie “The Son of God.”   I want to encourage everyone reading this blog to go see the movie this week and to take a friend with them.  While the movie does not attempt to recreate any one of the four gospels verbatim and it does take creative license in rearranging some of the material, nevertheless, it is an accurate portrayal of the life and ministry of Jesus Christ.  Let me share with you some reasons why I think that Christians need to support this movie:

1.) It provides and excellent evangelistic opportunity.

The movie presents the gospel clearly and repeatedly.  In fact, of all of the movies that I’ve seen about Jesus, this is probably the best at presenting the gospel in a clearly understandable way.  This thrills me because I believe that it is going to be a major box office success and that means thousands of people who have not heard the gospel will have a chance to see it portrayed before their very eyes.  If you have been burdened by the spiritual condition of a lost friend, neighbor or family member, you should invite them to do see this movie with you.  It will be a great way to break the ice and to start a gospel conversation with them.

2.) It has been produced with excellence.

Many attempts at making movies about the Bible, especially the life of Christ, have been plagued with low production value and look shoddy.  This movie is not one of them.  The producers have obviously taken their time and the result is a beautifully shot and masterful film.  This is important because we don’t want people to be distracted from the message by a poorly shot or produced film.

3.) We need to support Christian film makers.

It is easy to criticize Hollywood and to point the finger at the filth that is often found in movies.  With the “Son of God” we have the opportunity to support fellow Christians, Mark Burnett and Roma Downey, in their effort to prove to Hollywood that Christian movies can be major box-office successes.  Let’s support them so that there will be more incentives to make good movies in the future.

4.) It will be edifying to your own soul.

This movie moved me.  It helped me to get a visual image of Jesus and to feel some of what it might have been like to watch Him perform miracles and to teach.  While there are a few little details that are out of place etc…, I would urge you to not watch the movie as a critic or to find fault but rather to simply be reminded of how amazing it must have been for the disciples to witness Jesus at work.  You will enjoy it.

5.) For preachers — this movie is an opportunity to start a discussion with your church.

This Sunday I am beginning a series of messages entitled “The Son of God” aimed at coinciding with the release of the movie.  For eight weeks, I am going to walk our people through the life and ministry of Jesus to help them gain a deeper understanding.  I’m not saying you have to do the same thing but it seems to me that this movie will be a major topic of discussion.  Why not use it to teach your people and invite unchurched people to learn about Jesus.